Homemade Toner

No so long ago I bleached my hair resulting in a not so favorable yellow hue with streaks of orange. It wasn't cute. I toned my hair and used all the purple shampoo the drugstore could offer and still nothing worked or lasted. One day I got the idea to make my own toner. The store didn't have a purely purple dye so I went for the blue/purple one and prayed it would work. After watching countless tutorials on how to do it on youtube I was convinced it would work perfectly and I would have lovely white hair and maybe also be a goddess.

I mixed the Manic Panic After Midnight dye with a whack load of conditioner and put it allover my yellow hair. I left it on for a total of ten minutes remembering the warnings from the youtubers. After rinsing it out and blow drying it I can honestly say it didn't go according to plan.

In real life (horrible webcam quality) my hair is more of a minty blue. My mom likes to call it aquamarine since it reminds us of mermaid hair. Overall I'm not that upset and I actually like it.

The Virgin Suicides has always transported me to an untouchable time and place. A place where happiness and sadness were not oil and water but different water colors that bleed together to make a whole new world and spectrum. This is the first time I've realized that those two emotions can go hand in hand. Aren't they the strongest feelings? The ones felt most often? Ones that can tug and pull us in so many directions and deliver us into realms we didn't even know were made possible. I think being able to feel happiness and sadness as a whole makes us human. I used to think you could only be at one point in the rainbow spectrum of feeling and emotions, however I'm now lucky enough to know that there really is no fixed point in life. Things cannot be explained or felt as easily as we thought. Emotions are a kaleidoscope of colors hitting us in different places at the same time or not hitting us at all. They blind us. We can't even see how beautiful they look displayed on us.