There's something about looking at old photos of myself, when I was a little tyke, that makes me feel like I'm on some weird self discovery trip. It's strange to look at yourself so young, when you were hardly really a person at all, and comparing it to who you are now. How have I changed in the past 12+ years? How did I grow and change and become someone different right under my nose. Every picture feels like a little piece of a puzzle to show me who I am and how to keep growing. They show that there was a time before bad things happened. Back when the small things in life were life, and I regret to say things that I forgot about for so long. We forget and overlook so many things that we did when were younger that it feels like a part of us goes missing and we can't remember where or when we lost it or how to get it back.

Once Upon a Dream [Part 1]

As you all know the movie Maleficent is coming out as well as a Mac line dedicated to the movie and villain. You're probably just as excited as I am until you remember just how pricy Mac cosmetics are. The average for lipsticks are 20$ and up, nails range around the same price, and face makeup around 30-40$ and this is when it's not apart of a limited collection. I've decided to find some wallet friendly makeup that still gives that Maleficent villain vibe which is mostly green, purple and pink.

1,2,3 Nyx jumbo eye pencils in cucumber, rust and rocky mountain green, 5. Nyx baked eyeshadow in plum 6. Annabelle single eyeshadow in ver-to-go 7.Maybelline cream gel eyeshadow in painted purple, 8. Revlon cream gel eyeliner 9. Nyx hot single eyeshadow in electroshock

1. Nyx macaron lippies in Chambord, 2.Revlon matte balm in shameless, 3.Loreal color riche lipstick in refined ruby, 4.Maybelline vivids in vivd rose, 5.Nyx matte lipstick in brick, 6. Breathless lipstick 7. Maybelline vivids in fushia flash

Baby baby baby

I really love when people draw on their bottom lashes. I would put down a good eyeshadow base around the eye first then use an eyeliner like Covergirl liquid Line Blast, and then set it with an eyeshadow. Of course you can try liquid eyeliner or even gel.You should of course use a waterproof formula. A bonus is to set around the makeup with translucent powder to absorb any moisture since moisture leads to creasing and wear. If you feel your base is too creamy you can lightly blot it. What's great about this look is that you can go bold and dramatic or blend it and connect the 'lashes' together with eyeliner and pop on some shadow on your lids. Really experiment with it.TRY drawing on the lashes slanted to make them look more natural.

It's Monday and already Justin Bieber has MASSIVELY ripped of Paramore. I have never in my 17 years off life seen such a obvious rip off. Justin released his new song called "We Were Born For This" (just like paramores "we were born for this") BUT it gets better don't you worry. He then stole paramore fanart for the cover.

 

The Virgin Suicides has always transported me to an untouchable time and place. A place where happiness and sadness were not oil and water but different water colors that bleed together to make a whole new world and spectrum. This is the first time I've realized that those two emotions can go hand in hand. Aren't they the strongest feelings? The ones felt most often? Ones that can tug and pull us in so many directions and deliver us into realms we didn't even know were made possible. I think being able to feel happiness and sadness as a whole makes us human. I used to think you could only be at one point in the rainbow spectrum of feeling and emotions, however I'm now lucky enough to know that there really is no fixed point in life. Things cannot be explained or felt as easily as we thought. Emotions are a kaleidoscope of colors hitting us in different places at the same time or not hitting us at all. They blind us. We can't even see how beautiful they look displayed on us.

My life long love has always been 80s hair. Yeah... I know. I've been trying to figure out how exactly to get that look. My guess is a shaggy haircut, hair spray, dry shampoo, and a lot of teasing. Maybe one day I can achieve these looks.

Childhood on our lips.

For two months now I have been searching high and low for Lip smackers. You remember them? The lip balms that come in flavors like banana split or Dr. Pepper, possibly the first ever strawberry flavored tinted lip balm. I had gone to three drugstores, one of them being in the 4th largest mall in Canada, and still no lip smackers. Every time I asked a worker they either looked at me like I was crazy or have the audacity to tell me 'they went out of style'. Today I went to my local Rexall to see if the new spider-man collection from Revlon had been released yet, no dice, and stumbled upon the holy grail. Wedged between Annabelle cosmetics and Bonnebelle cosmetics was a small selection of my beloved Lip smackers. There were party packs (all my fave flavors and a few ones I don't like,) Disney collections, Minnie mouse, cupcakes and fruit tint and pop flavors. I feel to my knees in the isle and looked up at the small amount of racks holding my childhood. The moment was so perfect I almost wept. Unfortunately I didn't have enough money for the party pack (13$) and instead got a single Dr. Pepper for a dollar. It turns out lip smackers are owned by Bonnebelle cosmetics so wherever that brand is sold so will Lip smackers. I think the only places you can get the brands are at Target or Rexall. A wish came true today guys and a little bit of faith restored.

My prayers have been answered and my queen has resurfaced with green hair. For months now me and my friend have been hysterically hoping for her to go blue like she did shortly for the original Ain't It Fun music video, that was never released, but e accept this with a loving embrace. If memory serves me right she's never had this color before. Maybe she's testing it for that hair color line she whispered about to Nylon mag a few months ago. Also that outfit is perfect.

End of week 'Are You Kidding Me?'

1.) As some of you may already know Iggy Azalea has stopped crowd surfing because 'people try to finger her.' During an interview she even admitted that she wears extra underwear and flesh toned tights to further avoid being assaulted. Iggy went to twitter to find the people who were planning to assault her and has said that most of the people have been women. I'm proud to see a lot of fans realizing that this is wrong and speaking out about it as well as Iggy. People think it's ok to do this to her because of the outfits she wears on stage or in music videos or because of certain lyrics. This is once again people thinking they own someone else or owe something from celebrities. People are people, not objects. Rape culture strikes again.

HISTORY LESSON: Back in the 90s Courtney Loves clothes were completely ripped off her body by the crowd and was sexually invaded and groped while the fans called her names. People said it was her fault, she went on to write the song 'Asking For It'

 2.)  16 year old Maren Sanchez was murdered because she refused an invitation to prom. Let's talk a moment to let that sink in. A guy went up to a girl he went to school with and asked her to prom, she said no because she was going with her boyfriend, and he killed her because of her refusal. That boy felt so much that he owned her and that he was superior that he flew into a rage when told no. The media is making this out to be 'dispute' like this is a small little spat when really a young girl is gone and the male superiority continues. There is nothing small about this story. A family will have to bury their child.

3.) 40 year old Angie Robinson murdered her 16 year old autistic son Rupert before killing herself, a lot of people aren't agreeing with that though. Some people feel as though Rupert drove his mother to kill them because of his illness. The fact that anyone thinks that a disabled teenager is to blame for his own murder is flat out disgusting. People are even saying that it's better that he's dead because of the 'trouble' and 'hard ship' he must have put his parents through. If you don't see the problem with this you need to take a long hard look at yourself.


 

Pamela Love Dupes!

Recently I've fallen in love with Pamela Loves rings. However her prices have become and arch nemesis. I feel like paying well over 100$ for a ring is ridiculous. Maybe I'm just cheap... or sane. Anyway I've spent the day looking for dupes to her pricy jewelry, most which come from the promised land of etsy. I swear dreams come true there.

starting from top going clock wise 6.79$  5.10$  4.52$

going clockwise 8.68$ 15.82$ 22.68$

going clock wise 15.87$  3.40$   44.22$

Get a clue

With Iggy Azaleas love note to Clueless a lot of people (me included) have remembered their love for Chers style. Accessory wise she kept it pretty simple. I would suggest over the knee socks, scrunchies, or barets. Layering is really important. You can buy tons of flowy shirts or lace ones at places like forever 21, ardenes, or even walmart.

Forever 21 21$

Forever 21 29$

Today when I was watching Fire Walk With Me I remembered I really love the late 80s and early 90s and how they blurred together in the first and last couple years. One thing I really loved in the movie was the makeup and hair.

The eyes are super simple. Laura (top) seems to be wearing a light almost greyish blue eyeshadow or eyeliner and eyeshadow one or two shades darker than her eyelid, it's brought up just to the browbone. The same goes for Donna (bottom) except shes wearing dark brown or black eyeliner. I would say a lengthening mascara was used although the lashes are not dramatic and look natural.

My favorite though is the lips! I would start out by moisturizing lips and then applying a lip liner and blending it in with a finger or brush to make it look more natural and never cakey. I would then apply more lip balm for that slight sheen. I would suggest and long lasting, moisturizing lip liner. I would describe the color they're wearing as fruit punch.

TRY: Nyx slim pencil, Maybelline color sensational lip liner or any of your favorites